Today's the day.

In the past 48 hours, I've made some important decisions:

I am going to start doing yoga every morning again. Until I find a good studio it will be fairly self-directed, like it was before. Luckily I'll soon have a room big enough to really be able to relax...right now my mat is wedged in between a bed and boxes.

I am going to learn how to be comfortable with myself. I switch back and forth on how I feel about being alone- in the summer I crave it, in the winter I am torn...I am almost always alone in the winter, and yet it is never enough, but when I get enough it sends me spiraling into a depression so deep I can't be left alone at all for several days, which is what happened last weekend.

Point is, I would like to be able to tolerate myself, regardless. Maybe no sense of inner peace or stability is a contributor to this, so I'm hoping the yoga and return to writing may help. I believe another large stress factor is my mother, but all in time.

I want to go back to being a vegetarian, but not risk the iron deficiencies again. I want to do it right and would love for it to be a lifelong commitment this time around, so I've been doing a lot of research. I'm also done eating processed food and fast food.

I just got a new job at the gas station, so that's exciting. I want to do really good; and I should be living paycheck to paycheck with a little to spare for festivities. Woo! I would love to sell my car and use the money for school, but it's not in my name.

I don't know, this is just a very centered post about well-being; hopefully it's a little pickup from the last one.

-xx, E.