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Wednesday, May 26, 2010

So.

Update:
I'm single.
I'm a home-wrecker.
I'm failing all my classes. ALL. Even French.
I got into Otterbein.
I'm debating not going back to school, either this year or ever. Unsure though.
I'm in the worst mood I've been in, in a long time.
I wish I had a pack of Camel Crushes.
I feel sick.
I want to just live in a barn and ride horses all day long and never associate with any humans ever again.
I want to get the fuck out of here.
I want to paint, draw, write, and magically be good at science.
I want to understand what is beyond my grasp.
I want to be inebriated.

I just want to fucking be okay.

Friday, May 14, 2010

up in smoke

the whole world goes.

transcripts off to Otterbein and Findlay today.
Not even sure I care.

debating just working full time and working student at a barn and working my way up. Working.
Throwing myself into it.

V and Teiler are coming over in a bit.

that's all. More updates later.

Monday, May 10, 2010

Update :(

I know, I've been terrible. I know no one reads this, so it shouldn't matter, but I feel awful! I've been so busy with the girlfriend and work and school and I've just lost track of things like blogs, homework, eating and sleeping. I'm sorry :(
Here's an update: I'm trying to get fulltime at McD's so I can save up..and how I was going to transfer schools in the fall? I'm debating not. I'm debating taking a year off to work full time and get in shape (riding wise - P.S., updates on the riding blog should start in June sometime :D so keep an eye out). That way, I'll have enough saved up to potentially (ALERT: NEW PLAN) move to California May '11. Here, I would hopefully have a year long contract with Fox 'n' Firkin Farms as a groom, which I could do for a year, to establish residency (so far, yes, taking two years off in this new plan) and then find a different job while I finished my Equine Science degree at Cal Poly in San Luis Obispo.

notes: I would be getting my gen eds out of the way while still in Ohio. I could potentially be working two fulltime jobs here, as well as riding. I might be living with Jenn next summer if she goes to school out there, while Ana finishes her last year. Then her and I would get our place.

PS. My mother found out I was gay. Hence this whole new plan. That, and I just really, really, really want to be with Ana like....now.

-e :)